I'm not looking for what you're looking for but if I was you'd be the first to know I swear.

I'm not totally into music. I mean, I LOVE music but I'm not into it like my friend C. is. She lives for it - and makes fun of my Katy Perry obsession. But I like who I like.

Kinda like I love who I love.

The title is from this band that C. likes. It's not like, my favorite but there's something about it.

The weekend was amazing. We're figuring out a way to be together. Like, Happily Ever After stuff. Scary, wonderful.......I'm on the edge of something that will change my life forever.

WE'RE on the edge of something that will change OUR lives forever.

It involves leaving behind everything and everyone I've ever known, except for my True Love.

But isn't that the point of star-crossed lovers?

CRAAAAAAAAAZY.

That's what my friends are driving me. I know they mean well. I KNOW.

I want to tell them.

B says not yet.  But soon.

Soon means everything we've talked about, everything I've dreamed of.........is going to happen.

I wish soon meant now.

He says I need to spend more time with my friends. But I miss him too much. The time we get to spend together is ALREADY too short. And I want to tell them.

See the prob?

Sunday's School.

I lied to my parents yesterday.

It's a sin. A big one. I went to enough Sunday School to know that.

I don't want to lie to them.

But the reason, the reason is good. And real. And true. He says I'm the best thing that's ever happened to him. He says I'm the one. He says I'm his sunshine.

That's not a lie.

And soon, I won't have to.

Part Two....

The story starts here.

My great-aunt Lurleen (RIP) used to says what's meant to be is meant to be and there ain't nothin' that'll get in the way of that. I'm pretty sure she didn't make that up, but I'm also pretty sure that she was right.

There were days that I'd look out my window of my (perfectly nice) room in my (perfectly nice) house where I lived with my (perfectly nice) family and just feel trapped. Feeling like I was meant to be more than this, there was something bigger out there. But I couldn't move. Like an animal stuck on the highway between two lanes of traffic, knowing that they can't stay there forever but any movement is certain death.....

....But then he showed up. I didn't know it was a life preserver at the time, but he kept me from drowning.

The tow truck came and I thanked him and he smiled and I knew there was something there. He asked if he could call me sometime and I wrote my number with a purple pen on his palm.

The next day he called.

What's meant to be is meant to be and there ain't nothin' that'll get in the way of that.

NOTHING.

Can't sleep.

Just got off the phone with B. We never get to talk for longer than a couple of minutes. Tonite we talked for an hour. It was so hard to say goodbye.

I know that I promised the rest of the story. Soon. Really. I have to write this down because it doesn't seem real unless I do.